"I fear the silence because it brings the truth". Song lyric by Pink.
I once knew a woman who couldn't stand silence. You'd go to her apartment and every room would have either the multiple TVs on and tuned to the same channel or the multiple radios on and tuned to the same station. When asked why, her response was, "I need the company". This of course caused me, and many others, to cock our head to one side, scratch our ear and say, "HUH?".
If you have a poor self image then of course you can't stand the silence or being alone for any given length of time because it eventually results in your mind taking over (your subconsious that is) and thoughts begin to arise unbidden. These can be on something that went right or wrong and could have happened yesterday or in our childhood. For those with low self-esteem, they more usually are on what went wrong and are unpleasant and this neurotic dwelling on past, unpleasant events will retard if not stop any possible progress in our Aikido career.
Shrinks tell us that reliving and dealing with our "dark" side is the only way in which to reconcile ourselves to it and thereby move forward into a more positive and progressive life, with the failure to do so naturally holding us back in the "darkness".
Pedestrians live in darkness and humans live in the light since they are more willing to "deal with it". Pedestrians do not like living in the dark (unless they're REALLY messed up) but cannot come out of it due to fear of what might happen and what emotions may arise. As my parents and grandparents used to say, "Quit whining and just deal with it and be an adult. What's past is past and if you fouled up just be careful to not do it again and if someone took advantage of you then get away from them and don't be so gullible next time". I always thought that advice was very succinct and to the point and a motto to live by.
So lets end this search for "Being Human" as a series of "same title" posts and instead take a broader approach. (It was getting too difficult to do that anyway as a blog is supposed to be a little less structured.)
Humans look forward, have long term goals and are willing to look inward and improve who they are. Pedestrians do not and are totally satisfied to remain exactly as they are since it's "safer". But as a guide for moving forward then consider what we have looked at since Christmas;
"He's mad that trusts in the lameness of a wolf, a horse's health, a boy's love or a whores' oath."
"Clothes make the man. Naked people have little to no influence on society."
"The unexamined life is not worth living."
"He who does not punish evil commands it to be done."
"You gotta go there to come back."
"I fear the silence because it brings the truth."
Consider it on your own and see whence it takes you.
L.F. Wilkinson Sensei
Aikibudokan, Houston, TX